another year older

Well, it's my birthday! Another year gone by- it's crazy how quickly it goes. Usually I'm really excited about birthdays, but this year I feel odd about it. I couldn't quite put my finger on it until I started thinking about what is different. I'm not one of those people who gets sad that I'm aging; I mean, I don't LOVE aging, but I like birthdays and it's inevitable that we age, so, you know. But, I realized that at 33, I'm getting closer to the dreaded "35". 35 isn't old at ALL, but in fertility land, it's the cut off age where things change. For instance, they say in most instances, you should wait after you've been trying to get pregnant for about a year before going to a fertility doc; UNLESS you're 35. Then go right away. And if you're pregnant at 35? You're high risk. Yep. So, anyway, I'm well aware that I still have plenty of time, so I'm really not stressed about it; it's more of just an awareness that it's getting closer. Not a stress though. I know I'm still a spring chicken. ;)

Anyway, I'm looking forward to tonight, because my lovely husband is going to take me out to dinner and I will have some CAKE! Woo hoo! Yes, cake is verboten for me… but not on my birthday! Birthdays give you a "free pass" for stuff like that. ALSO, in a super lucky twist of fate (OR, maybe they just really love me) Starbucks had "free pastry day" today, and I redeemed mine! Yum. My free apple bran muffin was VERY tasty indeed. I will be having a salad for lunch to try and balance it out, but really, I'm not worried about it. It's my birthday.


So, I think in writing this post, by the time I reached the end, I've lost all my "weird" feelings about my birthday this year. I'm happy to be 33, and happy to be turning one year older. I'm blessed with lovely friends, a wonderful family, an incredible husband, a cute kitty, my health, a good job, and a roof over my head. Each year that passes it seems the more blessings I have, and the more people in my life there are to love. So, I am quite grateful for that. Happy Birthday, me.