Tuesday, May 11, 2010

if wishes were fishes

So, today I found a blog that had all of these birth stories, which I think are always fun to read. I just like hearing all the different experiences women have and all of the different perspectives. However, in a few of the stories I read today, I found myself getting a little jealous. No, not of the pregnancies themselves (though- yes, I DO want to get pregnant eventually), but of the “surprise!” pregnancies.

You see, I doubt that there will ever come a day, where I’m casually thinking “My! I don’t feel well, and haven’t for a couple of weeks! Oh! And whaddya know! I’ve missed my period!” Cut to me in the drugstore, and then taking a test, and calling Ian saying “You’ll never believe it! I’m pregnant! I didn’t see this coming at all!”

Don’t get me wrong, I know that I’ll be super excited when I finally do get pregnant, but I do sort of wish that someday there could be an actual “surprise” baby. I kind of feel like it’s sort of like knowing a marriage proposal is coming before it does. Yes, you’re happy that you’re getting engaged, but you already knew it was coming!

Anyway; I’m not trying to say that one way is better than the other. Just sometimes I wish I didn’t have to be so aware and deliberate about it all.

I do know though, that in the end, it won’t matter how it happened. I’ll just be thrilled to have my little one in my arms.

1 comment:

  1. Mariah,
    I just found your blog and have become a follower. I will continue to follow this journey with you (I put your blog in favorites) and I hope you will also keep me posted along the way on my blog Mama's Little Chick. Please read my About Mama Hen in the navigation bar and you will see that I, like you, had a lot of issues with fertility. I went through so much emotional and physical pain. I will tell you that it WILL happen - but in God's time. I learned that over many years of heartache. Hang in there fellow blogger! Visit me at Mama's Little Chick - www.mamaslittlechick.com

    Mama Hen